a gorgeous time to fall over a suitcase

there are mornings when you cannot stir the milk into your coffee because you are too in love to do anything but love. there are nights when you cannot close your eyes because you are too broken to do anything but hurt. there are people who will fill you up, people you want to hold every second of everyday, want to tell a joke to, want to play your favorite song for, want to sit shoulder to shoulder with. there are people who make you question what you're doing. there are moments that will shake you up until you feel yourself draining out into a puddle at your feet. there are smiles that will make you ache with joy. there is heartbreak. there is the best day of your life. there are a million stupid words you shouldn't have let escape. there are a thousand things you should have said. there are surprise notes under your pillow. there are places you'll go to and never leave. there are places that will always feel like home. there are prayers answered. there are big fat miracles. there are big fat disappointments. there are changes of scenery. there are scratched out lines in your notebook and hours of frustration. there is the loveliest thing you'll ever write. there is your most embarrassing moment. there are things you need to learn. there are things you need to unlearn. there is the most beautiful sunset you've ever seen. there is an unexpected arm around your back when you cry. there are camera flashes for favorite pictures. there is a leap of faith. there are big mistakes. there is an abundance of grace. there is your family. there are scars on your skin. there are goodbyes. there is the kingdom of God. there is heaven and hell. there are congratulations. there are hands shaking. there is the thing that makes you laugh the loudest. there is a question and an answer. there are tough decisions. there are easy ones.
there is your life - a fumbled mess of expectation, a beckoning surprise. and it's gorgeous with its timing.

it really is.