joy and chaos

hi, strangers.  I haven't blogged in awhile, have I?  each time I sit down and look at the computer screen to post something my mind just feels a little overwhelmed and like I have too many thoughts and not enough ways to say them.

life is strange right now.
Last weekend I got to celebrate my twin brother during his graduation from college. and although I technically graduated in december, my ceremony is this coming sunday, making the whole thing really feel official.  A few days after that, I will move from the house I live in with some of my favorite friends in the world and from the city I treasure in more ways than I can list.  I will walk away from the place where for the past four years I have been transformed and sanctified, educated and loved, challenged and stretched in really awesome, beautiful ways.  I will leave and head off into the next season, which currently is one big freaking question mark.  and that is my life.

I have no wisdom really, or even many complete thoughts on how to get through this weird transition that I and so many people my age are currently experiencing.  but, in typical fashion, as I was reading my bible this morning, I was hit by something that is true and that I have needed constant reminding of recently -

and that is joy.  joy in the middle of complete mysterious chaos.

In Ecclesiastes chapter 8 it says, "And I commend joy, for man has nothing better under the sun but to eat and drink and be joyful, for this will go with him in his toil through the days of his life that God has given him under the sun." 

I don't have a lot to say about that, other than that is pretty serious, isn't it?  To say I COMMAND joy, not suggest it or request it.  To say that we have nothing better on this earth other than joy - that is a big deal. The bible doesn't take it lightly.    

and so that is the challenge: joy. joy in excess, joy in the face of mystery, joy in the face of endings.  because there is nothing better for me under the sun.

and so I will pursue it with all I've got.  


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